I’m so confused I hardly know how to live. My head is spinning and every thought possible is running through. I’m almost getting dizy. I’m caught in a web that I created all on my own, of thoughts and wonderings I never let loose. Now it’s making me confused. So confused. I can’t focus on anything; I can’t focus on school, I can’t focus on my friends, I can’t focus on myself. How did I get here? How did I get so fucked up twisted? This was never me. This was never what I wanted. I tried to mind my own buisness, but you can’t keep the past away for forever. I guess in my case the past just caught up with me so much faster. Will it ever end? I’m trying to look ahead, trying to find light in this endless darkness. It’s hard when all you see is a black hole. It doesn’t even consume. It has consumed me and now it’s forcing every thought I’ve ever had down upon me. That’s how it feels. How can I make it go away? I really try. Why can’t I just be normal? Why me? Why me! All my life I just wanted to be happy. I wanted to get good grades. To make a life that would satisfy all my superficial needs, just like anyone else. But now I’m forced to go through shit. I’ll come out stronger, wiser - better. But if I didn’t know better I wouldn’t want that. I’d prefer it the other way.

nyfw-streetstyle

Wow, it's been a looong time since I last posted anything - this past month has been kind of crazy for me.
I'll try to get back to posting more frequently...

For now I wanted to share with you some of my favorite street styles from New York Fashion Week;

This look I really like; it's not too flashy or anything, but it definitely stands a bit out with the asymetric dress. And, to me at least, the color combinaition is amazing.

This one is so beautiful, I think. There's something old-fashion and fabulous about. You can really tell that this is a look that has been though about; right down to the matching shoes and glove/ wrap-thingy.

So there is really nothing extraordinaire about this, but I had to include it as it is very "me".  Don't be surprised if you see me walking down the streets wearing something similar to that ;)

justalittlebitofhistoryrepeating

i don't tell anyone about my life, about me, my secrets. because i don't want people to know, yet i tell you about my secrets, my problems, my life because i trust you. only do i find out that you go around spilling everything i ever told. realized that though you were my closest friend i meant little to you. my back stains with blood from the knife you threw in my back. you used me, i was the main character in the game you play.

i know that i have to let our friendship go, leave you behind in the web of lies that you spin. but it's easier said than done.

note: pictures are not of me, but they are pictures that i have taken of others - of course used with their permission

180810

Today I came across a site with a woman who claims that she will do anything that we (everyone else) are too scared to do. Seems cool, huh?

But as I scrolled to the many (read: endless) pages of blogging only very few had anything to do with what she pronounces as the reason for her blog. At least in my oppinion. So, in very basics it's all about a little thing called following through.

At first I got a little offended on the behalf of us bloggers. But then an even more scary thought came to my mind; what if, like most other projects that is started, this is just another one to fail.

The last thought, as already said, scared me more than anything else. In this post-moderne society that we live in, more and more projects are left behind, given up on etc. It seems as if no one knows how to finish anything (me included) anymore. I can help but wonder; are we just too restless? Is it the constant search for something new and exciting that leaves us jumping from project to project, person to person? Or is it that everyone around us has demanded of us to be flexible and ready to embrace changes that we are no longer able to stick to a project. Well, maybe the poor woman just ran out of ideas..

youwerethefirsttomakemefeelbeautiful.

 Look at you. You're young. You're scared.

Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring about what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want. Listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud as fudge and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget you have school the next day. Stop  waiting for Friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks. Tell secrets. This life is yours.

When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?

Gaga-mania

So obviously my life is vey boring at the moment, since I'm only writing about pretty much anything but my own life.

Well today's post is about Lady Gaga. Or more specific the Lady Gaga style. Maybe I'm wrong, but it seems as if everywhere I look Lady Gaga is taking over the stage of music. Both Beyonce ('Telephone' and  'Video Phone' - where Lady Gaga it really only written as "feat" so shouldn't it be B's style and not Lady Gaga's??) and now Christina Aguilera (with 'Not Myself Tonight') tend to do looks and videos in the Lady Gaga style. I guess, there's really nothing wrong with doing that, but especially Beyoncé bugs me, as a style like that isn't nowhere close to how she used to be - ever!

Also I like Lady Gaga because of her originality. Or maybe I should say that I respect her - because let's face it: not everything she has done is equally good. Like 'Let's Dance'; not really my favorite. But even when I really don't like her, I still respect her for having the guts to stand out in the crowd and be different. Like Madonna or Michael Jackson before her (some of you who are not Lady Gaga fans might get mad at me for comparing her to such great artists, but please bare with me).
And now that special thing about Lady Gaga seems to go missing - to me at least - when other people become almost identical with her. That's a shame, I think, and it's too bad for Lady Gaga because she can't really help it..

Well, I'm not going to say more now. You can judge for yourself:

Beyoncé feat Lady Gaga - 'Video Phone'

Christina Aguilera - 'Not Myself Tonight'

iaminlove

Jeg er faldet over en fantastisk handske fra Chanel, som jeg simpelthen ikke kan leve uden! Desværre bliver jeg jo nok nødt til at prøve, da der er ikke er store chancer for, at jeg nogensinde kommer til at eje den.

Men. Starter på endnu et gør-det-selv projekt idag; et par bukser. Mere om det senere

ENGLISH: I've fallen in love with a Chanel glove that I simply can't live without. Unfortunately I will have to try, as I'll probably never own it.
  Anyway, I'm starting another DIY project aswell; a pair of jeans - more about that soon. For now, just admire the glove.. ;)